It's my birthday......just saying

Next year my mom is hosting a Medicare party for me

Birthdays...at my age... they are important...consider the alternative!
but the hoopla isn't as important as it was,say when I was  10
I like a phonecall....a card......flowers....
.wish my birthday were in summer
then I could really get some good stuff for the garden....but heck at my age
if I want it I usually buy it myself...Who knows better than me what calls to me at the market
or store?
So....dinner it is today ....with family.......or whoever shows up to sit next to me...
no birthday cake please...watching the blood sugar....
no gifts.....just a smile and a "glad you were born"loving hug
Thanks mom ...you did all the work
to make it happen

Oh...did I tell you my little brother, Tim was born on my birthday 12 years later?
I take my thank you back Mom....nasty trick :)

whose house is this?

 

This has been harder than I thought.

Socializing

I have spent time on the internet researching this topic

and I have found a lot of helpful info 

But to be honest.....it's a heap of work

We are working on getting them to be dependent on us for feeding

moving the bowl closer and closer each time with us sitting on the floor in front of the bowls

got past that hurdle....now

we have to get them to eat off of our finger..baby food...chicken

they love it

This morning I came down and I found my husband feeding three of them

out of the jar....

They  have escaped out of the study and are running around the house...they sound like wild horses..

but a good thing is .....noise and the other cats don't seem to frighten them

progress

 

Now the hardest step....touching them

So far I have touched two.....cornered them in the closet

I held them tight to me and talked to them

they calmed down and let me hold them....

no bursting heart rate...no hissing no biting or scratching

But boy were they happy to be let down

Hank the tank and Mr Grumbles are still to be touched and held

But boy...I needed this job like a hole in the head

The parents have forgiven me and are showing up twice a day to be fed and are using the heated house outside on the deck

....not the ideal life for  beautiful cats but it works for them

My Boo, Ms.Kitty O'Shea and Abigail seem to get along with them just fine

 

I think it is good for them to have adult cats to mentor them

I wish

 

 

 



a still house, a stirring heart

They have all left now

 

There are still dishes to wash

 

towels to be picked up

 

sheets to change

 

...toys and books to be put away

 

The silence of the house was closing in on me

in an odd way

So what did I do

I put on Josh Groban's Christmas CD

 

tears started to fall....good tears

 

How I love my family

 

and how much do I love them all together

 

a neat trick if you can do it

 

 

It is Finn's 5th birthday today

 

we are going to CHOO CHOO Johnny's

 

Where our meal is delivered by a little train

 

how fun is that?

 

Then off to Build a Bear...heh, that's what he wants

 

Then later they will be off to the Bulls game with Grandpa

 

Grandpa......I have hardly ever talked much about him

Let me tell you

I am married to the kindest, generous loving man on earth

 

He'd have to be ...to let me keep 7 new cats in the house....

 

they are all doing well

But the day is coming soon when I will have to let go of the precious kittens

all of whom I have let into my heart

....but we must love

and we sometimes must let go

 

Just like waving at the suv pulling away from my driveway

my grandchildren crying in the back seat and waving goodbye

 

Our hearts heal...but they never close..at least not mine

Life and love go on

as it should

But for today I will be a bit sad

the house so quiet now