Wednesday, April 16, 2014

 
I ask you....is this the mug of a happy cat?
 
uh,no.
 
 
Eight teeth had to be extracted
and to make things worse, I am having the worst back spasms ever
 
So...my dear husband....had to do the deed...take Abigail in to the vet
 
day before..nothing after 10pm
 
WHAT!? was the panicked response from the entire household cat population
 
nothing????!  but I like to munch and nash at night
 
too bad....but it worked....Abigail..the shy...showed up promptly at 6:30am
for food
 
I told my husband we have one shot at grabbing her.....Boo understands English
 
snitched.......but in the end we got her.....and  that lean over caused me 2 days of bedrest
 
hello.....the flooring guys are coming soon....too bad there also
 
Now I am the traitor......I don't think Abbey will ever let me pet her again
 
Good grief, I can't sit or stand for more than 10 minutes at a time before
my back goes into spasms.....good grief......I hate this
 
I am a doer......
 
 
I know what sent my back out....that two days of 70 degrees
 
the garden.......clean up...raking
 
but oh dear it was worth it.....I think I came alive again in that fresh air
 
that dirt....that bloodroot and bluebells poking through the ground
 
 
But for now it's me on the bed with a book
 
The \Time Traveler's Wife....not enjoying it so far....maybe it's the Tiger Balm getting to my brain
 
I'll miss my writing group tonight.....
 
I was working on a story about a hoarder....who slowly becomes the junk
 
...good stuff......
 
At least the mind still works

Wednesday, April 9, 2014


My heart is melting toward Spring
Robin Red Breast sang early this morning outside of my window
 I stirred to the light of sunrise,
 roused to get up and open the window....to just listen.
joy

I went downstairs in my fuzzy slippers and put on a pot of coffee,
opened the patio door to hear the symphony going on
The cats heard it too and stretched and walked into the room
and lined up by the door....to bird watch

Miss Kitty O'Shea is feeling much better. Her nail had grown inward into her paw
and she had to have a visit to the vet last week......something she detests
...there are lesser creatures there...like dogs
But she survived the ordeal just fine and is on the mend....I even caught her walking upstairs!
Doctors...so good when you really need them.
 Abbey goes next week for a teeth cleaning,
that should be fun.....not
Little Boo hasn't got a clue that this going to happen to him, too. ..a visit to the vet
for his yearly.....When I took Miss Kitty he freaked at seeing her in the carrier,
wailed like I had never heard before, tail and body fur 2 times its normal size...so funny
He and Abbey hid all day......ha ha he goes next week

I have been going to bed smelling like an old lady lately.....arthritis cream on my arms and legs
not pretty
But we are getting wood floors put in upstairs and the man said everything has to come out of the closets and small things out of the rooms...he'll move the big furniture
yikes! Good thing I have been cleaning out the closets this dreadful winter.
But I'm telling you this is not a job for the weak or frail
.....I am so sore from packing stuff into bins, hauling them into the basement,
....I have too many clothes and shoes
....kept too much of my children's childhood
...too many art supplies and writing books, notebooks, poetry folders
.....too much jewelry and perfume
.....too much

I know I will not be putting it back into my closets or rooms
...Book cases are going to be pared
Writing notebooks gone through
Goodwill will be the recipient of many shoes, belts
purses and clothes that I hoped to get back into....you know how that goes

I will not be hosting  Easter dinner
This I know for sure

 
 
 


Wednesday, March 12, 2014

 
FINALLY!
 
You would have thought a Prince was about to be born
all the family gathered around
for his appearance
 
worth the wait...of course
 
He smiled at everyone....
 
Daughter Sarah is beaming
and resting
Oh I like days like these
 
Even great grandma was there to share in the joy
 
7lbs 1 oz
21 inches long
 
Mom had to have a rush c-section
and Walters blood sugar is a bit high
so there are a few things to take care of still
he'll be in nicu for 36 hours
 
 
We came home in a ice ball storm
and woke up this morning to a winter wonderland
of very heavy 5-6 inches of snow
Branches on the trees bending weighted down by this white stuff
 
Oh well......nothing came wreck my good mood today
 thank you for your prayers and good wishes
joy
 

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

crossed fingers and prayers

Blogger has it out for me
I am unable to upload pictures, and it is not a storage problem
I like to blog along with a photo...I guess because I like pictures
But, oh well, I am getting frustrated going into my computer to post pictures
So today it is just words.

Little Walter is still not here, so the doctors are going to induce my daughter.

Funny how our mom hats go right back on, competing with my grandma hat
No fear, there is room for both.
I am too nervous to tackle any more projects....only pacing to await a call
to come to the hospital.
Yesterday it was 55 degrees outside...can you believe it? Miss Kitty O'Shea hogged up the opened screened door, basking in warm sunlight on her aching joints. Age has its privileges.

Much of the snow has melted....but oh dear, we are going to get 6-8 inches tonight.
that should make good traveling on the toll way.  Maybe we will go earlier...it will only be raining with 40 mph winds. :-O

What I love about this event is the pulling together of the family. Major events do that.
We put aside our squabbles and different opinions and just love one another.
Our circle about to get bigger.

 

Friday, March 7, 2014

 
Still no baby
So I decided to tackle another project
cleaning my pantry
yikes
Have you ever looked at expiration dates on your spices?
and really how many cans of tomato sauce do I need
and what's with all these nuts?!
 
It is a beautiful blue sky day...I even opened the kitchen window
 
..I had a Swedish girlfriend who always told me to fling open the windows in the winter
air the house out or risk getting sick
Gosh I miss her. Her name was Sigrid
She had many sayings...
Like " you've got 5minutes to cry about it.....then get yourself back up"
"Your kid will always remember that you were there"
'If all else fails, bake bread"
 
I moved away and lost contact with her...I've tried to find her...but I think she remarried and
that was that.
 
I will be busy this summer with two new grandchildren..
.Tuula is growing so fast...
and praise the Lord..she is just like her mother
and you mother's out there know what I meant by that :)
And hopefully Walter will be born any minute now...!!
 
 I sense the years going by quickly
and I thought today that I must reconnect to my girlfriends...
I  somehow have been very busy these past years and going through much sadness
to connect much....
.But finding Sigrid's old large wooden spoon
in my kitchen drawer has given me pause.....
I need my girlfriends
 
I may even make up with one .....
that I truly do miss.....but ticks me off
 
the days are passing by fast....time to let go of the negative energy
that has kept me mad at her for 8 years
 
I think I may call her...listen to her drop the phone
 
....this could be good
 
 
 
 

Wednesday, March 5, 2014

 
 
The only one that is focused in this house is Boo
 
 I had to move my oxalis plant off of the cabinet
so he could get a catbird seat view
 
Why just look at that little sparrow...braving the window sill
 
Boo jumped and all the birds flew away
 
but they'll be back
 
It has been snowing for hours now
 
.....I am at my wits end with this winter
 
truly, I know we are all mostly in this same boat
 
but what happens to US is the most important
 
I can't seem to stay focused on anything but the weather
 
Friends call to bitch about it
 
and I listen sort of......
 
I have been making use of my time served
 
to clean out closets....but that is really a dangerous thing to do
 
I found a letter from 1969 from my brother
 
talking about how afraid and nervous he was to go to Viet Nam
 
He made it through Nam but died months after returning home
 
in a car accident.........but really  another victim of the war
 
I found colorings from my children when they were preschoolers
 
and old pictures....was I really that thin and cute? I wish I would have known that then
 
I spent my whole adult life feeling underordinary
 
It wasn't until I turned fifty and joined a bunch of crazy women
 
that I really found out who I was.....and I have enjoyed her ever since
 
It is hard to prune one's life of old clutter.....but I think there comes a time
when it is a must
So being in the mood I have been lately
 
I dived in
showing no mercy
 
closets should be cleaned and sorted by
dare I say...SPRINGGGGGGGGGG!
 


Tuesday, March 4, 2014



Miss Kitty O'Shea and I feel the same
We have both have been on a diet
during the longest winter ever
 
and we are crabby
 
It doesn't help that my daughter is overdue
Her baby was due March 1
and the last time I looked it is March 4th
Every day I try to console her....he'll come...he'll come when he's ready
poor thing...She can't sleep and has terrible heartburn
and she still gets up and goes to work
Heck, back in the day...hate that expression....but
back in the day....I stopped driving after my 5th month
and I babied myself......nothing has changed...If I want babying, I have to do it myself
no one takes pity on a 63 year old grandma
They just think I can do it......I always have
But hey, I am slowing down
exercise is getting harder
eating more restrictive,
I need Spring!
I know it will help my attitude to smell the wet glorious earth warming up
and to see a daffodil ...heck I want to see sunflowers!
oh and to hear the early morning song of the robin on my rooftop
oh, a woman can still have dreams
green...I want to see green
green grass, green leaves, green frogs
oh!
I feel better already
now if only I can get Picasa to post to blogger
 
 
 
 
 


Wednesday, February 26, 2014

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I love the things you can find on YouTube
This one is simply stunning in its message
get a hankie ready......good stuff coming
 

Saturday, February 8, 2014

relief from winter

 
 
 
It's only flurries
but really
 
STOP
 
and to top things off, I'm not feeling well today
 
too much popcorn at the movie theater yesterday
 
BUT
the movie was excellent
 
Labor Day
 
based on the book by Joyce Maynard
which I have ordered
...something to look forward to
I want to see if the director's vision
matched the author's
 
For a few hours I was transported to New Hampshire
a sweltering weekend in 1987
 
ahhh...the power of a good story
and a wonderful filmmaker
 
let it snow
 
 
 
 


Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Intervention please,somebody

 
There is cold and snow outside
There is stew in the oven
I just finished a brainless beach read
and the Godiva chocolates...
...truffles
are calling my name
 
If this winter doesn't end soon
I may have to sign up for the Biggest Loser TV show
and my husband too
Did I mention so far this past week
I have baked cookies and made a cake
It's serious folks
 


Monday, February 3, 2014

Light

 
Little Tuula
was a light bringer
lighting her mama's life with overwhelming joy
 

 
and Finn's
 

 
Yesterday was not only Superbowl Sunday
but Candlemas
A celebration of light
40 days after the birth of the Christ child
his mother went to the Temple
with her son
She went to the temple to offer a sacrifice
as required by mosaic law for her purification
while her son was seen by Simeon
who was told by the Holy Spirit that he would not die
until he had seen
 the Light of the world
promised
Yesterday a day to honor the Lord as the Light of the world

 
Candlemas is also halfway between Winter solstice and Spring Equinox
ancients celebrated the lengthening days
commemorating the annual beginning of the agricultural year
delivering them from darkness
 
Some people celebrate this day without electricity
...try that on Super bowl Sunday
But I did light candles
and thought about the light the Christ has brought into my life
the light that never extinguishes in me...no matter what
it is warm and comforting
a constant....for me....a light within
Not that darkness never tries to overwhelm me
but I fear it not for I have hope and light
 
I'm not certain about this winter...will it ever be over
today it is to drop to 8 below and tomorrow more snow
light a candle I say to myself
and gaze upon it and know
the season will change in due time
 
I have heard that one ethnic group
celebrates Jan 6th (Epiphany) with a circle cake
with wisemen figurines in the center
and inside the cake is buried a little Christ child figure
the one who gets the baby has to throw a party
on Candlemas day.....with tamales
 
Sounds like fun 
 


Saturday, February 1, 2014

They always find my house

 
I have seen this scraggly, dirty old cat a few times
...but not during this artic weather we've been going through
I did spot some cat footprints near our garbage can
and this morning I looked out and saw him
hiding under the mugo

 
He came onto the deck
but all there was was birdseed
 

 
He ran when he saw me
ran under the deck
So I went outside and dropped some dry food
by the opening going under the deck
He came out when I went inside
and ate


 
Who could resist that face
not me
 
ps. I meant to post this on my garden blog, but oh well
I guess I was meant to share this with you
 
We are expecting another blast of snow and cold
good grief this is the longest winter
I can hardly keep up with the bird seed
 
But I give thanks that I can help any of them
...the least of these
 
 


Wednesday, January 22, 2014


Sky mind
I look up
  become part of vastness
float
Then I see the plane
and my sky mind
disappears
returns to just
washing dishes
 

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

I and the Mother






Thought I'd share this beauty. The whirlwind is gone, the house quiet.
Enjoy

Sunday, December 29, 2013



A new life
A new granddaughter
the circle getting larger
What a blessing to us all







 
 
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Saturday, December 21, 2013

Today it begins
The Christmas whirlwind
2 weeks of family
all gathered together
and my daughter is due anytime now
to give birth to little Tuula
plans...?....who can make plans
with all this going on
Joy
that is what is going on here
pure joy
Oh Lord



Decorating and preparing
takes on a different flavor
when there are children involved
So I have my favorite Christmas hymns and carols
blasting away as I prepare the way
 
 
 
I'm actually loving all this chaos
I am listening to Oh Come Oh Come Emmanuel
and my heart is just about bursting
from nostalgia and love
nostalgia for the family that is no longer here
and love
for God with Us

Now to bake cookies
...

Thursday, December 12, 2013



Happy birthday Susie Sunshine...
like Mrs. Calabash,
-wherever you are
The knees weak
the ticker palpating
pills lined up on the kitchen counter.
I saw you this morning
through the fog of sleep
a sweet memory that had taste
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Wednesday, December 11, 2013



My goodness, my first grandchild is 7 today
and so far away in california
I called her early this morning to wish her Happy Birthday
and the first thing she said was
Happy birthday tomorrow Grandma!
A good heart
What more could a grandma ask for.....
a beautiful child with a loving
good heart
......two other beautiful grandchildren
and two more on the way!! that's what
Little Tuula is due on Christmas
yes, you read that right....Tuula
My children could take the prize in unusual names!
I wanted to be a grandma so badly
put it on my 25 list of things I desired...
boy oh boy....I was heard
By March...we will have 5

Little Walter is due March 1st
The wheel of life is turning
dizzying at times
..oh that could be my new blood pressure meds too!
Life is good
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Wednesday, December 4, 2013


I have a date with my mom today
....she's invited me to her senior group's luncheon
turkey and all the trimmings
great


and it will be great
She has reminded me that soon I will be 63
.....and that definitely qualifies me for the luncheon
with friends like her.....

Though I remember back to my younger days
when I was the youngest woman at our church's women's group
I was 26 and the others were into their 70's,80's and beyond
and they used to share stories about how when a new women would arrive
at their senior groups......the enemy
Most would grab hold of their husbands
and when a new man would join the group
 the single ones would make fools out of themselves
over a new man

and the senior women would dedicate their lives to
squashing the competition of a new....
especially an attractive... younger new woman
whoa
I think I will be the youngest one today
and I'm not decrepit looking
This should be an interesting time to test the stories of those long- gone church senior women
Maybe I'll skip the red lipstick
;)
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Wednesday, November 27, 2013



Oh give thanks unto the Lord
for He is good
and His mercy endureth forever

A childhood prayer
that comforts

I hope soon to be back blogging

..but have enjoyed reading the posts of all my friends
I am thankful for all of you

especially those who love and care for animals
those gifts from God

...bless those who care for the sheep...especially orphaned lambs
the dogs..especially the hurt the neglected the abused
and for those who have taught me to love the goats
and those who have shared the antics of their adorable kittens
....your kindness toward them warms the earth
and my heart


and Brian thanks for having such a big heart for the kids
that struggle through life
you are a beacon in darkness
thank you for this

Happy Thanksgiving to all


 
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Friday, October 11, 2013


google images 

crumbling threshold
the upright broom bids us in
the dirt floor upswept

Wednesday, October 9, 2013



I love this little poem

Broom

It starts
out so well
Its fresh
gold straws
cut square
Flared wide

But so often
ends otherwise,
With weary
wan bristles
all stubbled
to one side

...valerie worth, poet

I relate to the broom
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Friday, September 13, 2013


It is time
sweet kitty

Honeybun....she named you
....what her father used to call her

So deep is my sadness
...so short a life
...so short a time for you knowing my mother's love and need of you

This loss ....
dipping into her bank account of loss
for you
and suffering them all
all over again

Just a kitty
but oh so much more

We will be with you until the end
you are loved and cherished
Know that soft, furry one

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Friday, August 16, 2013

 
My two old ladies
They tolerate each other
they are united in hating Boo
 

 

He's too fast and too playful for them
 
Ms. Kitty' O'Shea has a bit of arthritis
and Ms. Abigail is a recovering feral
she gets spooked by everything
So today seeing them together on the stairs
was a smile moment
How did Ms. Kitty ever get up those stairs
Determination
I saw her staring up the stairs this morning
dreaming of the times when she was queen of the night
sneaking up on the bed and snuggling in for the night
but those days are long gone and Abigail has taken her place
even bringing us toys to wake up to
 
I have been away in Galena since Monday
and I think the old gal has actually missed me
I'll bet she heard me tell my mother that there are days
I say to myself.....
just do it....and I do
no matter what
 
but I can't sustain it long
Ms. Kitty O' Shea
can't either
she's back under the dining room table
I can sympathize
 
 

Thursday, June 13, 2013

 
  Guess who's flying in today for a visit?
 
yippee
 
 
good thing they missed this storm last night
 
A robin has built her nest at the end of a branch
that leans over the driveway
I watched her branch bounce and weave in the wind
and the rain pounding over her
Oh I was so worried
My husband thinks I worry over goofy things
she's a robin...she's been through this before
I am happy to say that mom and eggs
are doing fine this morning
....now to go shopping
 
 
 
 


 

Friday, June 7, 2013



I was alone at the counsel ring
the quilters...well they never leave their fabrics
and the other students
the glass , wood and paper cutters
man, they are as intense at the writers
But I was not feeling it this time at workshop
I needed some nature
some sunset
some alone time
So I went to cliff and sat
and watched
It was wonderful
...


 
 
 
 
 
 
I was about 30 feet above the lake
and all I heard were the loons
and the quiet motor of a fishing boat
it was so peaceful
Our group was small...nine of us
and only one new one
...it was a nice class
...not much writing came out of it
but some new insights arose from writing about personal stuff
 they always make you dig there those instructors....
I wrote about my Mexican grandfather
.....and my old neighbor Phyllis
I also managed to birth two pretty good haiku
..all in all a nice week

But the heck of thing happened
A woman tripped on the path, on the ascarpment
and went flying head first over the cliff
and fell 30 feet, hitting the side of the cliff half way down
She had been walking with her husband

I am ashamed to say..that is when my writer's brain went into overdrive
...but I won't speak of that..let's just say that I watch too much TV
concerning crime...

She was stabalized and helicoptered to GreenBay...it was surreal watching the rescue
as it got darker and darker
...They told us she had a broken neck,back,leg and ankle
and 80% brusing of her body...the 15ft break in her fall saved her life
or she would have hit pure limestone
....Needless to say it put a cloud over the rest of the week
...
At our last night, when we all do a show and tell of sorts
I read a funny story..the one about Phyllis
not the grandfather one
that one gets put in a drawer for my kids to find when I'm gone
....and they can't ask questions

know what I mean?


 
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