I'm going to a barbeque next week

 

and I want to show up looking good

how I wish I could still wear those heels

alas, I can't

Stinks....but I have had to make many adjustments lately

regarding getting older

Last night I tripped over the cat's toy mouse

in the dark...heading to the bathroom at 4am

Stinks....

good thing I have a four poster bed... that foot board post saved me

But...the four cats flying around the room like bats out of hell

with a stick of dynamite up their butt

was worth it

Yes, I have kept the feral kittens from a year and a half ago

nuts...I know

but the shelter wouldn't take them because they're feral

and ...well...you know....I got attached

I have a saint for a husband

...he ignores them, but lets them stay

..a good man I married

 

There's an armed robber on the lose about 2 miles from here

near the store I was going to go to for a new pair of jeans

but decided to stay home because it's pouring outside

Don't you just hate an armed robber on the loose?

Five women were gunned down in that same mall about 5-6 years ago

....again I was going to go, but was too lazy to stop and get gas...so I stayed home

 

How many times have we had brushes with death or disaster and didn't know it?

scary...

 

I prayed last night

back in the saddle again

oh, that's not a picture of me.....
but a girl can dream

 ..................never did wear camouflage...darn....too late 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Dill

 

I bought dill at the farmers market last week

 

I put it in a pitcher around the fireplace

 

and let it dry

 

It works its magic on me as I am in the business of ordinary things

 

a simple olfactory  delight

catching me unaware and suddenly

taking me back to grandpa's back yard

one of my saving graces of childhood

 

Today, it brought comfort unexpectedly

so many things on my mind that I have no power over

except for my reaction to them

 

and the dill stepped up

did its job

 

brought me to a place of safety

and a simpler time

where I just excepted its fragrance around me

connected to a bent over gray haired man

who spoke little

I loved him so

 

and the dill brought him to me in a magic way

I am at the point where I think I will stop praying

no one is listening

and my heart gets broken over and over again

 

but the dill

told me differently

 

remember the love always

and have faith