Writing group starts up again tonight
I was going to ditch it
feeling low and oh so sad
and I know you are all tired of hearing it.

 I want to say how incredibly thankful
for all of you who were kind and thoughtful enough to comment
on the loss of our little unborn granddaughter
She became still last Tuesday
at 34 weeks
your words comforted me, your act of love reaching out to me-
an unknown blogger friend..thanks

I have been rattling around the house all week,
so weighed down by my broken heart for her and her mother and father
But today my husband said, GO
to writing.....
Oh I don't think that is a good idea
I have no energy, no spark
nothing will come out of me that's not wrapped
in sorrow or loss
GO,
he said just now on the phone

...So...I;m making a quick pot of sloppy joes
and a salad
Mary Ann will be here at 6pm
my turn to drive

#119 Magpietale

chimneys and white brick

lights in the windows cheer me

people living lives



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"Walk through the different rooms where you eat,sleep,and live. Bless the walls, the roof, the windows,and the foundation. Give thanks as you sift and sort, simplify, and bring order to the home you have. Realize that the home of your dreams dwells within. You must find it in the secret sanctuary of your heart today before you can cross the threshold of tomorrow."

.....Sarah Ban Breathnache.....from Simple Abundance

FOR YOU FORMED MY INWARD PARTS

YOU COVERED ME IN MY MOTHER'S WOMB.

I WILL PRAISE YOU,

FOR I AM FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE;

MARVELOUS ARE YOUR WORKS,

AND THAT MY SOUL KNOWS VERY WELL

PSALM 139 14-15

Isla  (EYE-LA)  Maeve

Our little bud has passed away

at 34 weeks

Know that I am totally grief stricken

but put my faith in the Almighty

and thank Him for the blessing of her

though I never got to whisper in her ear

that I love her

My daughter is being induced now

..lift up a pray for this wonderful woman

this wonderful mother

who loves

that she be may be surrounded in prayer

and love

 



 

I LOVE A GOOD LETTER TO THE EDITOR
..THIS ONE APPEARED IN MY LUTHERAN INSURANCE MAGAZINE
I'VE GOT TO SAY THAT I WISH SOMEDAY TO MEET THIS WOMAN
A WOMAN AFTER MY OWN HEART
A RECIPE IS A RECIPE
YOU WANT TO MESS WITH IT...MAKE IT HEALTHIER  ( IN YOUR OPINION)
GO AHEAD...BUT SHE IS RIGHT DONT CALL IT SWEDISH
NO..CALL IT I MESSED WITH THE RECIPE MEATBALLS
OR TINKERED WITH TURKEY BALLS
AND I LOVE HOW SHE SAID... IN YOUR FACE...
THAT AT HER HOUSE YOU GET THE REAL THING
GOLLY I LOVE THIS WOMAN
I DIDN'T KNOW LUTHERANS HAD BALLS LIKE HERS
HEE HEE

 

This little fella turned four yesterday
In Laguna beach ,California
Not fair
But I honor my son's decision to make a life
for himself and his family where he chooses
and he is doing quite well
and I guess I have to admit that it  abounds in natural beauty
and our State of Illinois is just as tax and spend crazy
and full of corrupt politicians
only our governors actually go to prison
but that is another topic
It's my grandson I want to tell you about
He's firely independent
stubborn and brilliant
and this always brings a smile to my face
when I talk to my son about his son

His son is just like him
ha ha
I better take care of myself
because I want to be around to witness this

 

Today is perfect
sunny, high of 80
a great day to immerse myself in the garden
of things
And in a way I shall
My daughter is not feeling well
and little Finn is running a temp too
So it's off to 50 miles away
to care for them both
I'm bringing ground beef and onion
to make little guy his favorite grandma meatballs
and to give back scratches with his Thomas train
...hey...that's what he likes ..his Thomas train driven across his back
slowly
Not how I planned my first glorious day of freedom and good weather
but
remember what I said about love
it's all about the connection

 

a miracle of connections
that must be seen this way
to celebrate

Happy Jack's Babies

 

This is one of my baby squirrels that nested in the River birch tree
I love Thornton Burgess books...and his Happy Jack Squirrel

Lately I have heard squabbling and screeching coming from the nest
The smallest of them has a scrawny tail that is red... Orange red
He's rather shy and fast....haven't been able to get a good shot of him
But it seems all of them have bits of red in their fur
All my garden squirrels have had plain gray fur
until now....and this bunch is a warring clan

But this morning one of them brought me joy
as I opened the shutter and saw him munching away
at the left over bits of sunflower seeds that I put out last night
It rained all night....and I wondered about my critters in that storm
the Happy Jack squirrels in the tree
the mama cardinal sitting on her nest
the little sparrows in the houses
..my toads....

Storms come to us all
and most of us survive them

Just now a shot of sunlight
broke through the clouds
Did you see it?

blessings

Today is hair day

a trip downtown to get ripped off on parking

only to sit for 2 hours getting that natural look

of highlights and lowlights

and just the right amount of hair snipped away

I really enjoy going there...it lifts this old woman up

looking at all the young women so fashionably dressed

OH and the shoes they wear...my my

Lately I have been busy with family things

and book club and writing

but truthfully

I have been busy keeping busy to keep my sadness at bay

the clock ticks onward

every second of life

leading to heartbreak

to our family

I think I'll tip big today



magpietale #115

he reads his novel

sits in his narcissism

with a pruney soul


exhibitionist
your soul naked would reveal
a shriveled small man


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On the horizon

image by Raul Touzon





It is in the quiet house
that storms seem closer
When fear roars
When you  feel the cleaving of your heart
louder than the crash of lightning
You think you are prepared
for the torrential downpour to come
but as your heart cracks and falls to the floor
you know this is not true
and you 
reach up your hands
 for grace