They say the gift to give is land....lakefront? :)

I  turned 61 recently

Last year I turned that decade of 60 and the earth didn't fall away

and the sun still came up, glorious as ever

And now, today, it is our 41st anniversary

Well I have to tell you ...that number- 41- looks good

youthful

Wish I had turned 41....the things I would do differently

If I had only known I could have.

Wonderful thing...knowledge

Last night I wrote down the things I wanted to let go of

I almost forgot to do this as I was hooked on watching Project Runway marathon

yes, I can be shallow....actually I say this is balance

I used to drink a glass of wine while doing this...now at 61...meds

sucks

Anyway....the first thing I did was to light the fire,then I sat and stared at it

thinking of all the loss I experienced this year and of the sorrow I felt for so many friends

who lost greatly

Take care of them God......and then I tossed this into the fire

Next I thought about the failures .... even at my age...failure

......and this I tossed into the fire

and of course I had to think of the times I couldn't keep my mouth shut

and said that extra word...sometimes words that stung just right...but so wrong

this I don't do often.....I have learned this lesson mostly...but even I can be pushed

even I stand on ice and stomp......this I threw into the fire with much repentance

and then there are the goals I failed to reach...

and the hurt I had to free...to depower

and of course the ordinary weight of things like:

 the failures in the garden

the drawers and closets I failed to clear out completely

the dinners I failed to host

the exercise I let slip away

the friends I failed to see

the novel I haven't finished

the poems that I failed to write down

the books..oh the books I haven't finished

so much to let go of

burn the regret

For tomorrow... I welcome in a new year

and a new start.... begin it with a happy heart

not a heart weighed down by life

clean clean clean

clear clear clear

A swept heart is ready for opportunity

to love, to live, to laugh, to give,to see joy

to have a kind word

a kind smile

a comforting manner

a compassionate hand

A swept heart is always ready

Glad I swept mine last night....

Now to enjoy my anniversary.....

and my husband's whistle clean heart

joy