Friday, December 30, 2011

They say the gift to give is land....lakefront? :)

I  turned 61 recently
Last year I turned that decade of 60 and the earth didn't fall away
and the sun still came up, glorious as ever
And now, today, it is our 41st anniversary
Well I have to tell you ...that number- 41- looks good
youthful
Wish I had turned 41....the things I would do differently
If I had only known I could have.
Wonderful thing...knowledge

Last night I wrote down the things I wanted to let go of
I almost forgot to do this as I was hooked on watching Project Runway marathon
yes, I can be shallow....actually I say this is balance
I used to drink a glass of wine while doing this...now at 61...meds
sucks
Anyway....the first thing I did was to light the fire,then I sat and stared at it
thinking of all the loss I experienced this year and of the sorrow I felt for so many friends
who lost greatly
Take care of them God......and then I tossed this into the fire
Next I thought about the failures .... even at my age...failure
......and this I tossed into the fire
and of course I had to think of the times I couldn't keep my mouth shut
and said that extra word...sometimes words that stung just right...but so wrong
this I don't do often.....I have learned this lesson mostly...but even I can be pushed
even I stand on ice and stomp......this I threw into the fire with much repentance
and then there are the goals I failed to reach...
and the hurt I had to free...to depower
and of course the ordinary weight of things like:
 the failures in the garden
the drawers and closets I failed to clear out completely
the dinners I failed to host
the exercise I let slip away
the friends I failed to see
the novel I haven't finished
the poems that I failed to write down
the books..oh the books I haven't finished
so much to let go of
burn the regret
For tomorrow... I welcome in a new year
and a new start.... begin it with a happy heart
not a heart weighed down by life
clean clean clean
clear clear clear
A swept heart is ready for opportunity
to love, to live, to laugh, to give,to see joy
to have a kind word
a kind smile
a comforting manner
a compassionate hand
A swept heart is always ready
Glad I swept mine last night....
Now to enjoy my anniversary.....
and my husband's whistle clean heart
joy






17 comments:

  1. Happy Anniversary!! 41 years - that is amazing! :)

    And, happy to hear your husband is doing well - he has been in my thoughts and prayers! :)

    CHEERS to a wonderful year ahead of you, Suz

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  2. smiles...this is a great exercise to keep your heart whistle clean...smiles....happy anniversary suz!

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  3. Wonderful post Suz, the wisdom of the years shines through bright and clear! Glad hubby is in good health, happy anniversary to you both.

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  4. What a beautiful meditation and exultation! Happy ANNIVERSARY!

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  5. "whistle clean heart... Joy."
    I have followed your lead.
    Thank you.
    We will start the New Year with JOY.
    Happy Anniversary to you and your husband.

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  6. wonderful sister!

    when i turned 41 last June, I am not fully happy, because it never turned out the way I thought it would be. The person that I am expecting to complete my day did not show up and even called or text (shallow ei?)... but now 6 months after, with all the love I am getting and blessings that continue to pour in, I am very happy. well, i guess that happiness and love is better felt after a great sorrow.

    Happy Happy Birthday and Happy Anniversary! You and your family will always be part of my prayers!...

    Thank you for being a sister to me...

    JJRod'z

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  7. Happy Birthday and Anniversary, Suz!

    Thanks for all your warm comments and well-wishes to JJ and me! You truly are a wonderful friend. Hugs!

    JC

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  8. Happy Birthday to you and Happy Anniversary to you and your husband, Suz !
    Oh, the words you've written are so touching, so beautiful !
    Wish you and your family all the best for the new year,
    Sylvia

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  9. why Sylvia, thank you..we kitty lovers can be touvhing at times..:)

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  10. Well JC...thank you...and that Jj what a sweetie...I just know it..comes through his words...and I have a soft spot in my heart for people of the Philipines...
    thanks you for being his other

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  11. Happy anniversary! I'll turn 60 in 18 months. I'm having a hell of a time coming to terms with that!! Im my mind I'm 25.... I just got a huge butterfly in my stomach saying the number 60 out loud!

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  12. I agree with John, this is a great post. And your wisdom shines through clearly.

    Congratulations to you and your hubby on your anniversary.

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  13. This is beautiful. Hold tight to the man with the whistle clean heart. You are so lucky. Happy Anniversary and a sparkling New Year to you both.

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  14. Love the day. and days ahead.
    Happy 41st. what an accomplishment.
    Love knows no end.
    BlessYourHearts and HappyNewYear
    Bringing it in right, you two are.

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  15. Happy Birthday and Happy Anniversary Suz! I love your honesty and optimism!

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  16. a swept heart. oh i love that phrase.

    happy anniversary. thank goodness.

    xo

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