This is from google images

not my scale...though I wished it was

even with the chubby toes...if only I weighed 120 again

But I do have good news

my number on the scale has gone down

4 lbs since last Friday

whoo hoo

I am struggling with hypertension...will see the doctor again on Monday

another med, I'm sure

But it's really the clothes that I love that I cannot button  around my

bazoomies and all the other clothes that don't fit just right or not at all

Darn, I worked so hard getting into them 5 years ago

What happened?

I know where it began......I lost my beloved trainer

nuts that he was

But he worked me harder than I have ever worked before

no mercy

no excuses

This is not a TEA PARTY he used to tell me

move

Well,his personal life took a very bad turn and he was gone

I tried to find another trainer.....but no one was him

no one......nutso and all

I did the reformer for years

and yoga....

I stayed flexible...but it was the free weights and other taxing things that did the job

and the strenuous 3 day a week full body work out that did it

and walking an hour a day and being disciplined about my diet.....especially carbs

What happened?

Inch by inch it happened

ounce by ounce

I almost gave into my old lifestyle

But, I gave myself a good talking to

and said....JUMP!

So here I am.....4 measly pounds lighter

and working out again

3 days a week.....trying to be my own Dave the trainer

but it's the beauty I'm after

it is important to me to be beautiful

this is not a shallow goal

and it took me years to figure this one out

I've kept the outside beauty ...the changes

but inside I was losing my own standard

I was not true to myself

so it's off to getting back into those clothes

and gorgeous shoes

and jingling with my bracelets on toned arms

Ah...if feels good to be back full steam

 

Oh, and thank you to all you wonderful blogger friends

for your encouragement

Jj......I like your eating pattern

Dr. Meeta...... very good advice

Dar...it is a struggle isn't it girl, but that is not an excuse

we're really tough broads..now we need to be our own warriors

and Teri.....oh my ...bless you for your helpful words

it is our health too...really formost.....but for me it is taping into

my desire that does it for me...fuels my engine to live well

let's check in with each other